How does one learn self-worth?

asking for a friend

does this house know that it, too, is worthy?

I have come down with the flu and as of five minutes ago I was laying in bed, but then the new iphone “journal” app, (which is MANDATORY if you update your iOS) beckoned to me with a little push notification.

So I opened it up, and started writing and this little poem came out. And because I am still feverish, I shall now share it here.

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[Prays]

is effusive praise required
to know that I'm desired?

is your tacit approval
enough to grant removal

of my idears from between my ears
and into public space

in my mind i fall behind
but out there i could fall on my face

how to know i'm good
good enough to show

the answer is what I decide
of this truth, I know

I know it in my brain
and intellectually

but how to know it in my soul
i search desperately

for now its your remark
and on your like i hang

my aptitude is based on mood
hows the algorithm today?

somewhere inside i know
i'll learn to seize my days

but until then, and often,
please send effusive praise. 

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PS: Letters from Love with Elizabeth Gilbert this week asked for musings on the word “worth,” and the response really slaps.