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Sabine Kaur's avatar

I can identify with this; well said! And our household strongly recommends acquiring a black cat to improve the general quality of life:)

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Caroline in the Garden's avatar

Thank you! You don't have to convince me or the kids, its just my husband, but we're all working on it, especially after that dream!

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Catriona Knapman's avatar

Wow, what a great piece Caroline. I relate to that feeling of not having lived some years of my life - (also born in 1983 does that have something to do with it - those great 80s upbringings?)

For me, it was the realisation, sometime in my 30s, that I had spent most of my life in flight or fight or dissociation, and didn't know what it was like to feel regulated and normal. I also relate to eating up all that spiritual content to find meaning - a lot of which I am quite sceptical of now.

But more than anything, I am inspired (in return) that my attempts to find some inspiration in the desert summer of Dubai, also sparked you to start a magic journal. The little ladybird and shared dreams are beautiful. There is something in refinding those creative sparks and tiny moments even when we have responsibilities and other things pulling us away from them.

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Caroline in the Garden's avatar

Thanks Catriona! That's exactly it, fight, flight or dissassociation. I'm, likewise, inspired by your travels which really does give life so much more vibrancy.

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D. C. Wilkinson's avatar

Great piece, Zach. I've been in and out of an awaken-aware state, in the here and now, since forever. It's important to know the difference between simply being awake and being aware.

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Caroline in the Garden's avatar

agreed!

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D. C. Wilkinson's avatar

Sorry. I think I got mixed up about who wrote the essay.

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Caroline in the Garden's avatar

No problem I wasnt sure if you were responding to Zach's commenty which was great!

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Zach Sprowls's avatar

I, too, was asleep for 30 years. I really regret the awesome experiences that I wasted. But I’m awake now, thankfully. Or at least much more so. Every day is much more vivid. Very thankful.

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Caroline in the Garden's avatar

cheers to late bloomers!

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